wow i have not been on xanga in a long time ,let alone post... why is it ppl post on xanga when something hurts , why not facebook or myspace well i guess its cause ppl want to just go back to start , in reality its impossible so like normal ppl we like the next best possibility , so if you cant go back then whos to say i cant feel like everything is back cause thats all back is now just a feeling , a emotion ,a dream , so to make my story quick and cut the crap i feel like i been letting everybody down...mybestfriend ,mygirlfriend basically everybody but im not writing on xanga for some answers im writing to go back cause The Future Freaks Me Out. if anybody reads this and later on comes up to me to tell me they've been in my shoes ill answer which pair....